Dark Times

The bad economy is really not news at this point, but it really finally has hit home for me. Well, for awhile now I've had a tough time getting a job but to certain extent I've chalked it up to my poor interviewing skills combined with a lack of local positions. But today my father lost his job.

This is such a profound shock as I can't remember the last time my father lost his job. I know it happened back in 70's when the economy was bad. But I've grown up with that stability all my life, knowing that my parents will always be all right.

Moreover, I have to put my own house plans on hold in order to help keep them afloat. I can't explain how much this sucks. Just two days ago, the fi and I were getting together stuff to go get pre-approved and making wedding plans.

I'm trying not to be bitter, but to be so close and to lose it all hurts so much. I know it sounds selfish compared to what my parents are going through, but the fi and I worked really hard and made a lot of sacrifices to get to this point.

I don't know what to do next. For now, all I can do is sub and hopefully our plans won't be put on hold for long.