Its even more embarrassing for me.

Wil Wheaton is cool. Cool in that geek way anyway. I follow his blog on semi-regular basis and would welcome the opportunity to hear him speak.

But then I'm a bit of a rare breed of geek. Most geeks I know hated Wil Wheaton for the longest time because of Wesley Crusher. They got over it when they found out what a cool geek he was. But me? Well, because I was slightly younger than him and of the opposite gender--I had the hugest crush on him when he was on TNG!

Why bring this up now? Because I was playing catch up at his blog and came across this post. Why is it embarrassing for me? Because I had that exact picture in my collection of "like guys I'm like so going to marry someday!" cut from the pages of Tiger Beat.

Still, its funny--of all the celebrity "crushes" of my youth, he's the only one I still like. No, I have no plans to marry him anymore--he's happily married, I'm soon to be happily married. The rest of them seem like shallow pretty boys, but Wil--he had substance. Hence proving my theory once again that the sexiest part of a man is his brain.

A Change is Coming?

I've had the weirdest feeling? Impression? I'm not even sure what to call it. It's rather like a hyper-awareness The world around is going through a change, a major change. Well, I should say semi-global change--I don't think this change extend much beyond our planet. And I know just how crazy I sound when I say stuff like this, but the feelings been there for some time now, getting stronger as the years have passed. It was faint when I was college, but now it seems almost dizzying and I'm not sure what to make of it.

I can't help feeling that everything that's happening right now is part of it--elections, the economy, the environment. I could be wrong. I don't know...

What I do know is that I've been rather lax with my craft for some time now. I've put behind other things like getting my life back together. And while things are going swimmingly now, I think its time to nurse some of the lingering spiritual wounds. For the longest time, I had to practice my craft in complete secrecy in fear of what the person who was supposed to be my spiritual partner would do to me. Even when I was free from him, there were more pressing matters to be attended to, so I put my craft to the side, practicing when I could but not really advancing any.

So, I'm a student once more, but this time a student of the Craft. I'm working out a course of study for myself. But I know I am the point where I need teachers, people who can guide me to the next step. Lacking any local resources in this area, I've decided to enroll at witchschool.com. I'm aware of the controversy about the school (ie its all for profit), but they do offered structured courses within a set curriculum. And there are several courses offered for free, which I am currently taking now. If I find their courses to be worthwhile, I can see investing the money ($30 for lifetime membership seems very reasonable) to take other courses through them. At the very least, I'll have been initiated into a tradition.

Well, I guess that's enough of my crazy for one day. Tonight, I trick-or-treat!

I never thought I'd say it...

...but I'm kind of looking forward to going back to be normal sub. Don't get me wrong, I love that I'm teaching, and moreover teaching a subject I love. But it would be nice to be able to leave work and NOT think about it all night. I suppose if I were in a permanent position I would eventually get to that point again.

But right now, its just driving me nuts. I'm definitely in "survival mode". I can't wait for October to get here.

I want to get back to writing. I just don't have the time. Chapter 10 of DoI is burning in the back of my brain.